Pierson Tyler-Leonard
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I am broken thinking tomorrow is the anniversary, hardly an apt descriptor for something so supremely heartbreaking, nonetheless it was on December 1, 2008 one of the greatest loves of my life was in the friendship I shared with my beautiful friend Anthony Ottaviano who was senselessly gunned down
08:22 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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& left to die in a parking garage while protecting his then girlfriend from one of her clients who was stalking her & he took the bullet intended for her & the coward who killed him shot himself to evade capture..
This is the last surviving photo left of the two of us one I cherish..
08:22 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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Pierson Tyler-Leonard
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Anthony was as beautiful a man on the inside as he was on the outside.. His life ended in heroism but became a huge scandalous story because of the nature of the events leading to his murder soon overshadowed the fact he literally stepped in front of a bullet to save another human being..
08:22 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I have one consoling thought today in all of my grief which is this, people seem to always say after a loved one's passing words to the effect of "if only I had told him/her /them how much I loved them, how much they meant to me.."
08:24 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I know that there was never one time when we were together that I didn't make Anthony blush with my adoration of him and that I didn't care if he was straight, gay or bisexual or anything in between I loved him tremendously..
08:26 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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He would always, without exception, start turning bright red as if he had never been told such things fore on top of everything beautiful he was inside & out he was extremely modest about himself which was yet another remarkable trait for a guy who quite literally could have dated any man or woman o
08:26 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I am not one for crying I thought I was all done with that emotion that is until this day rolls around each year and I feel like I cannot breath when I think of his senseless loss.. He was just 40 years old with a lifetime ahead of him snatched away in the cruelest of ways..
08:35 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I cannot get the image of him lying their alone in the dark of night on the ice cold pavement knowing he was dying & praying for the aid she never called for until the next day... How do you forgive this..?
08:35 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I have indeed survived more horrors in my life then most anybody could even conceive of in their own but the thing about abuse is if it is all one knows, if it is how one understands the world then it is no different then someone who was only raised in love & kindness it what is familiar to to us, i
08:47 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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it is all we know.. Anthony was the one man who made me realize I was worthy, I was intelligent, that I was even attractive & he did tis because he saw in me what I was unable to see in myself and he would never let me think otherwise..
08:48 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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And in his murder I feel I somehow let him down.. I knew I should have spoken out about her after meeting just the one time I knew she would be the ruin of him.. She was using him it was plain and painfully obvious he was a wealthy white shoe lawyer which she exploited for money & he died bc of it..
08:51 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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Oh God I ought not to have sued his entire name like this...
09:10 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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I remember how I would just sit and be in absolute awe that this man even looked at twice let alone felt he needed to be punished for his feelings for me.. I was unworthy of his love in the end because I failed him in staying silent.. I could not find the words to make his pain go away...
09:23 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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Thank you kindly.. My loss is overwhelming as is my regret of not speaking up when I had the chance.. For being at a loss for words, the right words, that would not make me seem petty or jealous of this woman but concerned for what was plainly & painfully obvious for others to see about her..
In response to B Saucy Now.
09:58 AM - Nov 30, 2023
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