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🎉🎉🎉1000th SPOUT🎉🎉🎉

As promised, it's storytime! I've been waiting to tell this one for a while so I figured now was as good a time as any. Grab your popcorn and get comfortable...it's a long one.

Thread incoming... 🧵

CW: suicide/self-harm
Dee Jay @DTJ483
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8th grade, spring 1999.

I was never the most popular kid in school. If anything I was the least popular kid. Got bullied constantly and the only thing my teachers would ever tell my mom is that I never "applied myself". Whatever that means.
11:22 AM - Apr 20, 2024
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Anyway, I was at school after hours one day, with the rest of my class, rehearsing for our production of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night.
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Back then I had a really bad stutter, so I was messing up basically all of my lines and because I was the least popular guy in school, everyone (especially the girls) kept laughing at me. Eventually I got fed up and asked the teacher if I could be excused for a minute. She said yes and I
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angrily walked out of the room and sprinted to the school library, which was right down the hall from the classroom. I went in the library and because the door for both the library and the classroom were wide open and because no one else was in the building at the time
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I could STILL hear the girls laughing and making fun of me, even from down the hall. I got even more angry and walked to the sliding-glass window that was located at the back of the library. There were these thick metal bars blocking the window but I was skinny enough that I could squeeze through
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the gaps in the bars (I weighed less than 100 lbs back then). After the 3rd time I heard the girls' laughter echoing through the hall I couldn't take it anymore and stepped out onto the small ledge on the other side of the window and looked down.
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This is it, I thought. I'll just end everything. No one will even miss me when I'm gone.
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I jumped off the ledge, closed my eyes and fell with a loud *THUMP* onto the grassy lawn below. After a few seconds I opened my eyes and felt a sharp pain in my left knee. I screamed the loudest scream I've ever screamed in my life (seriously I think everyone within a 10 mile radius heard it).
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One of the other parents--who was waiting in their car for the rehearsal to be over--heard my screams and ran over to me and helped me up. My mom pulled up in her car seconds later and the other parent helped me into my mom's car.
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My mom rushed me to the hospital and by the time we got to the ER my left knee had swollen to the size of a grapefruit. The nurse said they were gonna have to drain the blood out of it and she pulled out a GIANT needle.
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I was scared as hell. Worst part was they had to use it on my knee twice. I screamed loud as hell both times. Eventually after several tests and X-rays the doctor said I shattered my left kneecap and I was gonna have to be in a straight-leg cast for 4 months and after that,
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they would decide whether or not I would need surgery. 
Luckily I didn't. Ended up graduating middle school in my cast and the cast came off a month later. Mom almost sued the school for what happened but I convinced her not to.
11:42 AM - Apr 20, 2024
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To this day she still thinks I fell out of that window, she has NO idea I jumped.
11:43 AM - Apr 20, 2024
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Why did I decide to tell this story? I don't know, honestly. I guess as a reminder to myself (and to anyone reading this) that things do eventually get better. Sometimes I think about what would've happened if my life had really ended that day.
Thank goodness it didn't.

/END
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So there you go. Had to edit it a bit to get all the details in there (damn you 300 char. limit!) but hopefully you get the gist of it.

If you've read this far, thanks. Just wanted to end this by saying I love it here at Spoutible & here's to many more spouts from me! 👍🏾🍻
11:45 AM - Apr 20, 2024
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Thank you for sharing- that was not easy for you but I am so glad you are here with us. Keep spouting! To another 1.000 spouts!! ❤️🤗
02:42 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Dee Jay
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Thank you! 🤗❤️
03:01 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Star Wars Cats
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In response to Dee Jay.
Hugs to the middle schooler you and anyone else who can relate to this story.
01:40 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Dee Jay
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Thank you 🫂❤️
01:46 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Lynn Daniello
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In response to Dee Jay.
Thank you for sharing. I am glad you are here part of this community.
01:39 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Whoa!
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Thank you for sharing this story. I'm glad you are still here.
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Dee Jay
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Thank you! I am too 😊
01:34 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Ellen Leigh
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In response to Dee Jay.
I am so sorry the other kids bullied you like that and you felt ending your life was the solution. Glad you did not. I remember feeling that way too from time to time. So far I've been able to remind myself to wait and see if the mood goes away. So far.
01:29 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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k Broquard
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Thanks for sharing
01:23 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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Peter Fraser
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Thank you for sharing your story, and for your honesty, that takes a lot of courage. I'm so glad you're here, and a part of the Spoutible community!
01:15 PM - Apr 20, 2024
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