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Ok.. so after a couple of things yesterday, I thought it might be a good idea to talk about self image for a second. More specifically, people with a distorted self image.

If you like vulnerable Roxxy, then grab your snack of choice and get comfy. It'll be a long one...
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What is self image?

So put simply, self image is how we see ourselves.. our intelligence, skills, appearance. But also how we think other people see all those things in us.
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A person with a positive self image sees themself as attractive, happy, healthy, intelligent. And believes others see them this way as well.

A person with a negative self image is the opposite. Often, a negative view of self isn't based in reality.
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It's an accumulation of impressions that we get from ourselves and from others.

Negative self image can cause and be a driving force for many things, including:
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(For fun I'll put a heart next to everything I struggle with)

-impairment of occupational, and social functioning
-development of Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) 🖤
-Physical Disfigurement
-Depression 🖤
-Anxiety 🖤
-development of a clinical eating disorder 🖤
-persistent feelings of shame 🖤
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Let's use Roxxy as an example:

Believe it or not I actually have a pretty negative self image..
I don't actually think I'm overly attractive or smart or funny.. or anything really. I think everyone fixates on the "not feminine" aspects of my body just as much as I do.
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But why does Roxxy feel like this?

There's a few things I could pin point..
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-I had an ex in high school that told me she only dated me because she knew I was less than her and would be easy to take advantage of.
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-Pre transition I would often be "mistaken" for a girl.. to which my mom would say "I don't get why people think that, you'd be a hideous girl" like that's an ok thing to say to your child, repeatedly, for years.
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-The normal girl stuff of comparing myself to models
-struggling with mood disorders that make things that are easy for other people, very difficult for me.. leading me to feel I'm stupid cuz I'm not great at school.
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All that on top of being trans in the southern part of America.. is a really shitty cocktail for my mental health and self image.
So yeah, a couple big yikes things in that list. Lol
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Why do I act slutty and post the pics that I do if I have a terrible self image?

In a way, it's over compensation.
But more importantly, it gets me positive attention and compliments. Which really help me in trying to crack through all the perceptions and distortions I've built up over my life.
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So I know some of you are shy or don't want to come off creepy or whatever.. but seriously, don't feel bad about liking and sharing my pics. Compliment me in the replies..
tell me I'm hot and perfect and everything. It's what I want, it's why I do it.
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Spoutible is probably the only place I could do this safely.. and I'm so glad it exists.

Why did I spend all this time writing this out in notes, just so auto threading could butcher my prestine formatting?
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Because it's so very fucking important to be kind to people. The things you say, and in some cases, don't say.. have impacts far beyond what you probably realize.

🖤Roxxy
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