1/10
I'm going to be super honest about why I left, because there is so much BS swirling literally all over the internet that I just need to wipe all of that away with balls-out honestly. So here's a thread....
11:38 PM - Jun 16, 2023
2/10
I am a survivor of abuse. I come from an abusive home, and I've had multiple abusive relationships as an adult. One thing all these abusive relationships had in common was the inevitable moment when the people I loved publically humiliatied me.
11:40 PM - Jun 16, 2023
3/10
Around age 30, I snapped. And went zero-fucks for all those assholed. Pardon my language. One of the things that helps me recover from all the accumulated PTSD, is being zero-tolerance with people who put me on blast.
11:41 PM - Jun 16, 2023
5/10
That's literally it. That's the reason. He quote-spouted me, to tell me I was wrong. That's it. That's all he did, but it crossed a line for me. He did not attack me. He was not mean to me. I don't get to argue about what is and is not swarming with the guy who was just on the cover of Wired.
11:42 PM - Jun 16, 2023
6/10
But I didn't want to badmout @cbouzy at all. I value this place. I value his work. He's attacked nonstop. I didn't want to, as they say, dog-pile.
11:43 PM - Jun 16, 2023
7/10
So I say to myself. I'm feeling triggered here. I don't want to say anything bad. I don't want to badmouth Spoutible or @cbouzy by explaining any of this. I'm just gonna bounce.
11:44 PM - Jun 16, 2023
8/10
And people, all over the wold, are filling this empty space I left, with every G*ddam conspiracy theory, self-validating, narcissistic, spin, to attack him, or me, or both, because they can.
11:45 PM - Jun 16, 2023
9/10
This included the Doubtible assholes who are lurking on all this right now, reporting this all back to Twitter, saying me leaving validates every insane conspiracy theory they've spun throughout time. I cannot have that. Stalkers are my least favorite people.
11:46 PM - Jun 16, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Glad you did what you had to do to take care of you. Also, glad to see you back!
05:39 AM - Jun 18, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Welcome back... I knew my timeline was missing something but couldn't put my finger on it. It's not the same without your spouts and echoes. 💙
01:20 PM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Welcome back! I joined in April but somehow hadn't followed you yet when news of your departure hit the waves. So glad I can follow you now! (I guessed you were a fellow abusee from your reputation for peacemaking + sudden departure. Complex PTSD is a bitch.❤️)
12:44 PM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to PhiNight.
Thank you! And omg YES CPTSD is -the- bitch! And now stress triggers my auto-immune disease, which I developed because of all the chronic stress. So I have to be hard-core about cutting all unnecessary stress out. That's literally all this was about. I feel awful.
12:46 PM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
So many thoughts, but they all boil down to I'm glad you took care of you, and I'm even more glad to see you here again. Thanks for speaking your truth.
11:55 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
I’m glad you are back. I missed your voice and presence here. Your words reminded me that we never know what is really going on in someone else’s life. 💜
10:02 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Welcome back! Your presence was definitely missed.
09:50 AM - Jun 17, 2023
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In response to Anne NotOfCleves.
💖 Yeah it's been a bit of a Twilight Zone. It was a foundation in my calculus that no one would really care if I left bc I'm a random normie. Now these Doubtible people have been discussing me for days and it's absolutely gross. I'm so sorry for causing so much chaos here. I never imagined.
09:02 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
So happy you're back...
...today WAS worth waking up for...
...#WelcomeBackDeirdre
...today WAS worth waking up for...
...#WelcomeBackDeirdre
08:05 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
There was a little piece missing here w you gone. Glad you decided to rejoin us.
07:21 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Diane Turner.
Thank you Diane. You have been a tremendous support through this whole thing. Consider yourself assigned one more IRL forever friend. 💖
07:24 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Welcome back. I'm delighted to see you again, but now I wish you could have stayed away rather than feeling pressured or obligated to return because of the site haters. I've led a mostly pampered and abuse-free life but if you ever need an online hug or thumbs up I hope you'll reach out.
07:18 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Welcome back. I admire your reasons not only for leaving, but also for coming back. I have seen false, uncharitable narratives developing here. You had no obligation to come back to that, but we're so happy that you did.
07:17 AM - Jun 17, 2023
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In response to Deirdre Assenza.
I'm sorry for what you had to go through, but I'm glad you decided to come back to us. 💕
05:03 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
1) Your bravery and courage are an inspiration!
2) I'm ecstatic you've returned to splash around with us!
3) I've got you!
4) If you ever feel attacked or triggered by anyone, DM me immediately; I don't care who it is.
💕🍓🍓🍓💕🙏🏾
2) I'm ecstatic you've returned to splash around with us!
3) I've got you!
4) If you ever feel attacked or triggered by anyone, DM me immediately; I don't care who it is.
💕🍓🍓🍓💕🙏🏾
03:12 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Ramsey, Queen of Popcorn®.
Thank you love. You are the absolute best. 💖💖💖💖💖
10:37 AM - Jun 18, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
I'm grateful for your honesty and your bravery. Welcome back to this home.
01:07 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
much respect and support for you 💜 thank you for coming back💧you are quite strong and we all missed you 💦 welcome back 🌴
12:56 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
I'm sorry that you experienced that. I'm glad you are back. I've enjoyed interacting with you here.
12:51 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
Be sure to check in with the Canadians. They seem to be handing out some honorary Canadian citizenships. I'll bet they can get you in. Also, #NicheSpout had a moment that was kind of fun. Really glad you are back.
12:47 AM - Jun 17, 2023
In response to Deirdre Assenza.
I can't imagine having an intimately personal and difficult decision spread all across the internet. You're right though. They were yakking about it here, definitely on Bird Chan, on the Ancient Elephant, and probably Post too but I don't go there anymore. Welcome back. 🙏🐳
12:38 AM - Jun 17, 2023
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